Tuesday, December 25, 2007
back from retreat
hellos people. actually i have a reason for this post. i wan to say out sometink which has been bothering me for quite a moment. its the objective of this family. wad is a family? This clique was formed cos i feel that the 10 of us can really click well and be the best of friends tt will never leave each others. tt will share all our happiiness and troubles and times of need together. intially. i really feel that this objective really exist. and that i really treasure this family. tts why i buy the 1o benko. each bbenko represent each of us. and thats why the family exist. until recently. i realise alot of things are changing. i admit tt i have attitude. but i have control alot already. this chalet clearly shows everything tt has happen in our family. i apologise for my attitude. i wan this family tgt. but this clique is no longer is a clique. this family can no longer be named family when all 1o arent present. i mean. i unds tt u guys wants to make new friends. but pls unds tt new friends. doesnt means forsake old friends. for 4 whole days. im waiting for u guys to come auto to find us. but to my disappointment. u guys didnt. im nt blaming u guys seriously. im blaming myself for nt being a good leader. have u guys realise? we didnt take a family poto tgt. in eyes of people. we are like a big family. but deep down. we all knew tt we are scattered like sand. pls. tell me wad should i do. to say the fact. im rank number 6 in the family cos im number 6 youngest. infront of me have 5 people whom are older than me. tell me. wad should i do. cos seriously. i felt that. this family is no longer like a family i no longer feel the need to hold us tgt cos i did all i could. please tell me all yr opinion. if nt. i feel tt. if u guys really feel that u guys need to have new friends. i tink i will end this family and be normal friends. no more gathering and blah. pls tell me wad to do. ALL MAYI PEEPS. friends arent meant to be given up. but im nt giving u guys up. its u guys tt is giving this up.
